Missing in Thought

Alhamdulillah A'la Kullihaal..

Today is Syawal 7,1439H. Thursday. Jun 21, 2018.

My 1st day working after Syawal break.

It's been around 6 days, we've keep in touch. well, missing them. very much.

May Allah always hold my heart in His Hand. I'm helpless without you Ya Rabb.

I'm afraid of my own self and feeling.
I'm afraid i might lost.
Lost in my own thought.

Astagfirullah..

I know, i have to face it. this feeling.
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I need to taddabur more of your beautiful ayahs.. and continue reading the heart crumpling book which for me, it's so beautiful and strong content to the extend.. I've stopped half way, because of i'm felt that my heart were crushed like wreaking ball..and ashamed of myself too..Masya Allah..

The book entitled...
Pemilik cintaku setelah Allah & Rasul by Utzh Fatimah Syarhah Mohd Nordin.

Thank you Ya Rabb for the soft reminder for my self in building a great inner self and thus a good baitulmuslim.

Deep in heart..I know, i'm too far from that. That good person. with great and pure heart..
I know it my self. yes. In know.

Yet,

I believe, the path to Nur is always there..I need to get there, hold my self for Allah's Redha.

Yes. It is. That is my will..Insya Allah

May Allah keep our heart in the right path.

Ameen..